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My Journey of Surrender

Welcome to my honest little nook of the internet where I am going to share with you the power of surrender and how the practice of journaling has helped me finally let go.

Let go of perfection. Let go of people pleasing. Let go of forcing things to go “my way”. Let go of the stories. Let go of the little voice in my head telling me I wasn’t good enough. Let go of all of it.

And replace it with flow. And ease. And synchronicities. And things just magically working out in ways better than I could have ever dreamed up in my mind.

My name is Melanie and for most of my life I was trying to live a perfect life (whatever that means). I fought so hard to maintain the image that I had it all together, to follow the plan, the ‘American Dream’. I fought so hard that I actually achieved it. On the outside my life ticked all the boxes: 6-figure job, husband, beautiful dog, property owner, but on the inside I was quickly withering away. Insert panic attacks, binge eating, isolation.

It wasn’t until life stepped in, like it does, and everything around me started to crumble. Marriage, gone. Properties, gone. Business partnerships, gone.

This sparked the beginning of my journey inward. I knew the way I had been living wasn’t working. Trying to be everything to everyone except for the one person who really needed me: me.

Journaling was one of the most powerful tools that helped me to get connected to me. It was through journaling and reading my journal entries that I realized how much of my life was run by ‘shoulds’ and how much I had been going around the same merry-go-round year after year. Journaling and reviewing past entries helped me awaken to my inner voice and to distinguish it from my true self.

This is what prompted me to create The Conscious Journal. It’s a journal that has the format that has helped me over the years. It has page numbers and a table of contents to be able to easily document and reference past entries. There’s also one prompted page at the beginning of the journal to help you take inventory of where you are in your life at the time of starting that specific journal.

With over 30 journals filled cover to cover over the past 7 years, I can say those journals are a huge part of the incredible new life that has unfolded for me.